I have a dream!

Life is so full, but today I thought I would ponder my future. What is it that I would most like 'become'on my journey? What am I creating to help my family prosper? Although the answers of these questions and many like them are far reaching, I believe that like most things in life if I search the scriptures and pray and ponder that the answers will become clearer to me.

So, to begin...In looking at prosperity I am not alone in my pondering of such things. Across contless generations have these things been written...1 Nephi 2:20, Jarom 1:9, Mosiah 1:7, Alma 37:13;49;30;50;20 

"If ye keep commandments, ye shall prosper"

It can't be much clearer than that! I guess, then in the living of Lehi's dream(1 Nephi Chapter 8) to walk unwavering the strait and narrow path we become more ready to receive the 'fruits'of HIS blessing.
I like everyone that I know often over look these blessings each day. It is only when I STOP and pray with a grateful heart for these blessings that  I even mentally acknowledge these otherwise insurmountable feats. I am reminded of revelation given by Elder David A. Bednar ...

"The tender mercies of the Lord are real. They do not occur randomly or by coincidence."

 Now, that I have established that I have come to discover that I must strive to live the commandments to the best of my ability - nothing like setting a MEGA sized goal straight up on my journey to prosperity :) The one thing that stands out for me about Jesus was that he 'created' so much in his own likeness. He created a beautiful world with stars,trees, plants and wildlife -for me, the world created was purposeful and not without perfection like himself. I believe that in order for me and my family to prosper I need to also 'create'. Unlike Lehi in his very specific dream, I have a dream that I can create things to remind people about the 'Light of God' and in the Importance of staying Clean (Spiritually speaking ). I am about to embark on the journey of creating and marketing my own "candles and soaps'' to prosper as promised in scripture.
Have I ever made soap or candles? NO! Have I all the equipment to do it? NO! Do I know about marketing and sales trends of home industries? NO! ........I think that just like when Jesus created the world - it took TIME, when Nephi and Noah built there ships having never crafted one before I believe it was there FAITH that enabled their craft to develop, when Joseph Smith and the early saints endured such hardships not only was there faith developed but their resolve to stand for TRUTH. I too hope to grow in my KNOWLEDGE that "  he is like a ^crefiner’s ^dfire, and like fuller’s soap; " I want to be able to look back to today and remember a point in time where i set my worthy goal out, pondering it , praying for his guidance in it all that I may in the process be 'refined' and come to know HIM as I come to learn of soap and candles.

First Mobile/Cell Phone Post

Today I am weary from asthma and a rather exhausting week!
I am grateful that on this beautiful Sabbath day I have my family around me and good friends looking out for us.
As I type today I am mindful of the busy fortnight ahead of us. Master One has been selected to be part of a leadership camp for school. As this will be his first ever school camp he is very excited and so are we for him. Just this week he managed to achieve his level 6 for his bronze medallion . A true outdoors lad who loves to tackle projects I would never dare! For his art assignment this week he has created a sculpture to reflect "a day in his life" - he has hand made an enormous sculpture of a hand with clay ! This is my same cherub who broke that hand in 5 places a year ago- yep a day I bet he will never forget !!! :)

My Master two however, has been mega busy creating a website about his nan and life in the 40's . He has needed to overcome lots of challenges independently to achieve this task - because I for one have never built web stuff like it!


Mr lovely gave our miniature horse a bath last night, I think it was the funniest thing I have ever seen. I think hubby ended up more covered in bubbles and water :) True Love!
Well this entering a blog from my phone has not been really hard at all! Yay for me - still living, still loving and best of all - still learning!

March to my own Drum!

March............to my own beat and drum:
This month has not only reminded me how fast this year is disappearing but how life is also! In the space of a week we have had the emotional turmoil of the most seasoned traveller of life. It has been a time where tears flowed, tempers were spicey, trials seemed to outweigh our strength and resilience at times. However, I feel that despite my less than perfect week;
I felt the strength of a MIRACLE , the might of a SAVIOUR , the peace of a TEMPLE and the love of FAMILY and FRIENDS.
I think that change is never easy but it is a gradually learned part of life that we become more equipped to manage. My blog has taken a backseat for the past few months, I truelly got to the point of - who cares anyhow? But while having my self doubt party I came to realise that the point of a blog for me is 'FOR ME' ...to pop back and see not only my personal growth but also the growth in page traffic has reminded that sharing my page is a goal that I have. As daunting as that is...I hope that I gain some more followers and comments (hint hint :)
Learning to be comfortable in my own skin is not always a reality...but I think it's ok to realise that God's not finished with me yet and that everyday is a new day - to begin again....my pace, my way, and my journey.

Out with the Old and In with Contentment

Having spent much of the past month and a half relocating , I have found myself confronted with so much excess that has accumulated since baby Thomas passed away. I now realize that my hoarding/collecting has inhibited my growth and ability to move on in a healthy way. However, maybe it was that i was not ready to 'part' with another thing - so perhaps it was the healthiest way to do things : FOR ME!!!


I guess that untimely cultural expectations of 'get over it', ' move on' all come into how well we mum's of small infants who have died cope. Most of that type of banter we have little to no control of at the time , well meaning people just unfortunately open their mouths instead of their ears and hearts. I guess I have learned so much from the experiences of life, it has not all been easy , but at the same time it has not all been bad either. I have begun to not hold onto reminders of our sweet little boy and the things we had hoped for him, his bath tub, his bike seat, his bath ring and the endless list...instead i am trying to cling to the belief that one day in the heavens I will be re-united with my 'too fragile to hug' little one's and will greet them with open arms.


So with Thanksgiving on the horizon in just 4 weeks time, I am planning to begin a 'new' family tradition of celebrating and giving thanks for family and friends with a special dinner. Part of my preparation is to get rid of that which has been accumulated over time and make room for new things and people in my life.

Courage...Oh Where Art Thou!!!!!!

Today I begin to blog again after a break for a couple of weeks. I feel again the need to ponder and puddle around in my 'space' to find my feet.
I have come to discover that my wavering courage is a major inhibiter to my success in many areas. So I am going to begin my very own challenge today...to share  things that I discover that will help me to be more courageous!

What helps  you when you lack courage?What do you do to fight the pull of confidence lacking self doubt!

So far this week life has thrown me some rather enormous curve balls, however as usual ,mixed in with all lifes adventures and trials are 1000's of blessings each and everyday.
This week I achieved a major mortality feat that required a reliance on faith and in the Saviour like few  times before...I think i prefer to fight for my life knocked out than concious ! That is another story .... but enough to say it had me in the grip of fear there for a bit!
My main learning point for this is...

Don't lose sight of the Saviour, HE has me in full view!

I  kind of love this piccie....I took  it when I visited the halls of the Relief Society building in SLC, I was so focussed on admiring the history of this amazing women who was an extraordinary women in her pioneer life...I didn't see "me" in this picture at the time....look hard you might find me!
I guess we all have a role as extraordinary women in the Church to be like the pioneers even now,even me. Their stories of courage are timeless! Although set in an era past, their example is a strength to me as are the scriptures.
I hope I can one day be viewed through my own eyes as courageous like I view the lady sitting in this picture!

A Bad Day!!!But Grateful!

Well yesterday was like a day from hell! Here we were straight from Conference on Sunday having all manner of petty things ‘fire’ the boys up. What  the heck! To share an eraser caused an incident with a ruler, which in turn became a punching match between two growing boys…..AAARRGGH! And it continued  all day long, “it’s his turn not mine”, “I didn’t do it” and so on …!

I continued to remain calm (at times – just) and thought I’d plan a special FHE to remind them where our attention ought be with Easter on the horizon. I had found a very cool activity on a blog where one makes and Easter tree! Perfect out came the silver paint…until it ran out and only half the tree was painted!………….So never fear off I went to print the accompanying sheets for decorating the sheets- and FAIL the printer would not print!!!!!!! With dogs then barking to be fed, kids disappointed and needing to shower, dinner needing to be cooked my Mr Lovely Husband rang to let me know he will be a few hours late getting home! Just Fabulous!

So, an ala’carte dinner of baked beans on toast became the cuisine fit for a Queen last night……….But then…..

My lovely diet sabotaging husband came home with the most heavenly tasting, visually pleasing ginger fluff sponge sandwich filled with fresh cream and topped with caramel icing. It was sitting on a doily in a little clear box  all by itself…Intentionally purchased for me! What’s a girl to do but oblige. Hmm. extra swimming today- big time!

But, once they were all in bed and I reflected upon not only my day … I became aware that I have much to be grateful for…including a very special treat after 3 fairly low gi weeks :), a husband that got home safely from work and spicey kids that keep life day by day a mystery of how it is going to  turn out!I am grateful to a friend who text me an invite to a morning tea today with other RS women. I am grateful to our leaders who give me ‘hope’ day to day,especially when I head their words.

                         

Who is Thomas S. Monson?

http://www.thomassmonson.org/

This is a great link to a wealth of information…enjoy!

Thoughts from Conference

A link in case you missed some of it…..
http://lds.org/general-conference?lang=eng
Tonight my head is swimming with thoughts. A feeling of inspired renewal is my heartfelt lift towards my purpose in life.
Francis said when asked of his favourite bits from Conference :

*President Thomas S. Monson said, to be uplifted,be inspired as we learn during general Conference.

* “When Elder Ulchdorf said,

 “Families can be stronger , like rope, if we work together”

*Also, when Ulchdorf quoted Saint Francis of Assisi as having said,

“Preach the Gospel at all times and if necessary use words” In other words – be a good example!

Paddy’s favourite bit was:

*Thomas S Monson spoke of the importance of temples and always striving to have a current recommend and to know it is a sacred place.

  *Sister Jean A Stevens said,

“Children pay tithing and  grow in obedience”. 

Me…my thoughts:

* my most favourite was from Richard Maynes, who said,:

“Create a Christ

Centred Home!”

*L.Tom Perry (Quorum of the 12) said,

“Make the Saviour the Centre of our Lives”…

“Be though an example…..of the believers”

*Quentin L Cook said, :

“Latter Day Saint Women are Incredible”

*Elder Ulchdorf in addition to Francis’ quote about Saint Francis which hit a chord with me, said :

“Move forward in Faith &

don’t wait too long on the road to Damascus”

“Hearken to the promptings of the Spirit &

then be Eager to follow them…hear his whisperings & respond”

“Turn down the noise”

* Paul V. Johnson of the 70 said,

“The only way to see the view…

is to take the trek”

* H.David Burton quoted David O’Mackay as having said,

“We should be interested in the temporal help people need.”

* President Thomas Monson closed the conference saying.

“May we be examples of Honesty & Integrity wherever we go & whatever we do”.

There were many more..but while we ponder these few…I will share more in the weeks to come.

These quotes are more than words to me…..for they are my ‘desire’ for me and my beautiful family and in doing so I pray we too will ‘become’.

RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS DAY!!!

i wrote this for my group page in Relief Society Sisters Page- but thought I'd cut and paste it into my blog here too today :) cos I guess it can apply to not just the sisters but to any of us ...male or female :)....

Random act of Kindness Day!!!! (i just declared it :)




I am not sure that we are meant to get through this life smooth sailing and all by ourselves 'just managing'...I think that we are 'meant to' be there for each other AND NOT WAIT TO BE ASKED!!!Sisters I ask you, who do you know that would LOVE to be surprised by you arriving on their door step tonight with a cooked dinner for them after a busy week, who do you know that may not be on your visiting teaching list that you could ring and just say hello to because they mean so much to you, maybe you know a couple with children who might have forgotten what it is like to have a date night-who can't baby sit. And biscuits sisters....who can you make a plate of biscuits for??I have never seen a busy mum decline such gifts of love. In an effort to teach my boys about service one day we took afternoon tea over to a ladies house....they had a bag full of cleaning gear...while washing their hands in the bathroom they locked the door and scrubbed what was already a very clean bath. Leaving nothing behind but a single chocolate rose to surprise this lady. This lady has terrible back pain (often) and although my boys couldn't change her back pain - her spirit was lifted by their little effort of a random act of kindness. Neadless to mention they had fun with rubber gloves for weeks in our own showers at home cleaning :) I think that it is through small acts of kindness (at random) that we lift each other and invite the "Spirit" not only into our life but also into the lives of those around us. So get your gloves on for cooking or cleaning etc and have fun. You might be surprised at the reaction. ps get out the ward phone bk....and pick someone who you would never ever ordinarily go or mix with!!! Love ya..hey and post how it went (no names :)And don't forget you can plan even more fun things for you Random acts of Kindness Day :) next week and the week after....be like Christ – Just do it!


"When you are in the service of each other...you are in the service of the Lord "..... what a great way to prepare for Easter.

I am....

I am...
... a choice daughter of God with infinite worth, goodness &potential.That is who I see. (G.P)


• ...Blessed (Vicki- Ann Lammi)

• ...BEAUTIFUL (Dallis Dromgold)

• ...A beautiful daughter of God,with many of his virtues.(David B.Baker)

• ...going to come for a swim anytime! (Jennene Lammi)

• ...fantabulous!!! (Wendy Merrill)

• ...sending messages on the phone(Jennene Lammi)

• ...Righteous, blessed,charitable, and lovely:D (Candice Houston)

• ...LOVED! (Margaret Morrison)

• ...a very good friend to both the young & the elderly. (Jennene Lammi)

• ...A true Christian. (Jennene Lammi)

• ...probably on Facebook (Jennene Lammi)

• ...maybe reading the ensign (Jennene Lammi)

• ...Ah but most probably looking through Rosie’s Quilts.(Jennene Lammi)

• ...And Yes, very beautiful (Jennene Lammi)

My Conversion Story & Testimony

As you will discover by my blog i am not some 'articulatedly (if that's a word)gifted member' such as yourself. But still learning and pressing forward in faith.

I suppose this is a good challenge to me to reflect back on not only the past few years when i came into contact with Church members for the first time but to look further back knowing that Heavenly parents sent me here with a divine mission in mind. I was born into a Christian home with rich traditions and values, I am one of 5 children to a family. Family was essential to me right back then as was the rich knowledge that God's love was 'unconditional'. As i grew, i discovered very painfully that love like that was often not my experience in day to day life. But with every hurt, abuse and violation experienced i continued to know that Heavenly Father's love was -unconditional.

It my early 20's I entered formal religious life with a congregation based on being like Mary and serving God with a wholehearted "Yes".The congregation I was most closely drawn to was one that was imaged on the "Family Tree", in that it had Priests,Sisters,Brothers,Missionaries and the Laity all working, living,serving and growing in the charism of Mary (Jesus Mother). However, despite my deep love for the sisters and this congregation I knew deep down that I could serve the Lord better without taking vows. So press forward i did, leaving behind a depth of gratitude, love and respect for my 'religious life' companions thus far.

It seemed like seconds after that transition that my darling dad began a fight with Leaukemia! I was totally gutted. My dad had been a sheep farmer for most of his life and a wonderful example to me of the 'good shepherd' ... a friend, a guide and a spiritual example to me throughout my life. I then met my now husband who I married feeling a sense of stability and love that I had long thought impossible from anyone other than God himself! We began our family with two beautiful sons. I don't think i had fully appreciated what a 'miracle' was until giving birth.God's hand was definitely involved in bringing these babes into my arms - how else can you fit something the size of a watermelon through a key ring!!!!!! My beautiful dad died three weeks before my second son was born. A bitter sweet moment for me...but i knew then like now that my dad would be with me still - just from Heaven! We then had a miscarriage whom we call (Joy) followed by a beautiful little boy whom we named (Thomas) who was stillborn whilst he saved my life...i could not save his. Grief and loss seemed to surround me...questions about the eternities were not forth coming from my Church I had always known and grew up with.......yet i had a reassurance like never before that my babes and my dad were indeed in Heaven and that Mother Mary would help dad with those babes until it was my time to join them!

I began to quilt...trying to make something beautiful from scattered pieces of fabric seemed like therapy that reflected my struggle of life and my new found desire to "Know my purpose for being here". In a Church that could not acknowledge my sweet Thomas(because he was 6 hours too young in womb, to be given a full birth certificate!) I was sent home to bury him myself on Mother's Day with my husband. A Church who believed a life is a life from the moment of conception, I was now faced with a search for 'truth' like never before...which Church is true???whilst trying to continue raising two boys and loving two babes in heaven and a husband as Christian. We visited and were fellowshiped by other Churches during this time of 'ecommunical' searching. I then had phnemonia and passed it on to my husband and nearly killed him with it....

It was time to prioritize our health like never before...we began a home delivery run of 'organic' fruit vegetables and groceries......and strangely enough i started to feel like i was coming alive again. One of our customers was Sister and Brother Stevenson and their family of 10 (mostly male) clan. Sister Stevenson and her ideas of provident living matched mine, she too knew that my 'angel' children were in HIS fold in heaven ...we became great friends. Brother Stevenson was a fishermen with stories of faith through trials that would capture all of my families attention and appreciation for 'truth'. One day, that I am moved to tears at fondly remembering...Sister and Brother Stevenson sat me down (as they often had at the end of a busy delivery run), however, this time was different! This time they acknowledged that I had come from a Church background and that they respected me in my search for truth. They told me how much they would like me to read a book and ask the Spirit to testify if it was true...but above all not let the book come between our friendship. (i think i failed 'em on that last one- cos i think it kind of built a bridge between us but i guess that wasn't what they feared). I folded the book in my arms and assured them i would read it. Why wouldn't I ...this family had some of the most amazing teens I had ever met - i wanted my boys to be like that!

Well please don't ask me what my family ate that week... I just thank heavens that I did come home with not only the Book of Morman but also with several boxes of organic produce that kept the family all nourished as I chewed my way through the book...I read it cover to cover...not stopping ...night and day...with the exception throughout - i paused to ask what Brother Stevenson had said "ask the Spirit to testify of the 'truth'"...................Walla! I was balling, reading, balling,reading (in australia balling is when we cry enough to break the even the worst drought) ....it was true...it matched everything i knew from life's experience to that point...even the unexplainable events......Thomas and Joy did have a heavenly purpose....to get me to search for "truth". We had wonderful missionaries, who had times taught us much more than the Plan of Salvation! David my husband was baptized two years ago on Joy's birthday(this past week) and in turn baptized the boys on their birthdays and me on Thomas' birthday.

It didn't happen over night...we took 18 months to begin to learn from a 6 week cycle of missionary talks...but I wasn't going anywhere - I KNEW like i have a nose on the end of my face that this book is true and that unlike Pinocchio...my heavenly babes "were REAL" children and they like the Stevenson Family and so many others were great missionaries that helped get us this far...as did our "FAITH". I will be 'eternally' grateful for the courage and Faith it took for the Stevenson's to share this little book with such a HUGE impact on our family!

In December of last year we went on our first ever international trip...to UTAH........we were sealed in the Salt Lake Temple after taking our endowments. It was the most beautiful day with my family all sealed and aknowledged as a "Family Forever". Our life leading up to and even after the temple has not been smooth sailing.Indeed there have been times when if it were not for 'taking the Saviours hand' I like Peter would surely have drowned. However, faith moves me forward through those trials when I place trust in HIM and 'not look back' i feel HIS reassuring Love and Companionship again.

To catch a glimpse twice of our beloved prophet along with Elder Ukdorf and Elder Eyring was like seeing the snow and how beautiful things are clean...beautiful people are of God!

I testify that we do have a living prophet and of the prophets since Joseph Smith that have so truthfully restored the Gospel. I believe that when we too share this Gospel in our lives and how we live in Faith knowing and learning of "truth" that My Redeemer Lives! I testify that the blessings of the atonement are real and that when we take the Saviour's hand we can have the Holy Spirit's peace and our Heavenly Father's love with us daily. My name is Tanya Boylan and I am a Latter-Day Saint who writes this testimony and story of my conversion in the name of Jesus Christ.

2010: MAY YOU HAVE.... enough faith, hope, peace and light.

Once upon a time....

Here goes.... a time to dare to reflect on life!The good , the bad and the ugly...I do tend to find it helpful on the 'get real' facts of life!

Well upon reflecting on things I have come to realize that 'once upon a time' .... I was young, confident, fit,.......... the list could go on but i'll try to move on....i have come to realize that anxiety (however unrealistic)holds me back.....an invisable scar from 'life'! I want my childhood me back - mind, body and soul!...so press forward I must....in patience and trust in exercising Faith.

Not sure of anything much now....I just know we are on the right path. I need to become humbler, meeker, .......why? to become the me I want to be!

When confidence is shattered it is like picking up fragments of glass that one needs to rebuild...there can be pain and beauty in every splintering part - just like life!

The Power of Words: 50 words that lift, motivate, and inspire from a LDS...

I LOVE THESE WORDS....I MIGHT TRY TO MAKE THEM INTO A QUILT, WHILE I PLAY TUG A WAR WITH A COUPLE 'IN LIFE' :)

out with the old & in with the new

Here I sit beside the lily filled dam at dusk of a magnificent day. We enjoyed a busier than usual day of homeschooling with everything from mask making,money trading,reading,narrative writing and even some interviews by phone.

Kookaburras have just broken into song and the birds are like that of a world class avery...I do love our little tree house in the bush!

With the year passing us by so quickly I am puzzled by how much we need to fit in before Christmas this year.

I feel like I am more settled at present than I have been in a while. I think good friends have greatly enhanced our lives here and I hope we never have to move away from them or visa versa.

The flowering begonias remind me of fond memories gardening with small babes years ago...while now those babes whip past me on the ride on mower with an air of confidence and love of fast toys!The glow of the now fast setting sun is near blinding me but it's warmth is somehow comforting at the end of this Monday.

I wonder what Tuesday will bring? I can say that living day by day is a nice way of life for me. Being overschedulised is just not my thing!

But I do tend to like to know what is coming too...before it is on my doorstep.

Oh well that's my ramble today.....Hope i get back sooner next time :)

What happened to May?

Here we are mid June fast on the horizon and winter upon our door step. I love the cold weather for everything except arthritis :) . The pumpkins from our orchard are plentiful along with the passionfruit whilst i begin to rebuild my new vege patch. I transplanted a tomato from our little farm and am joyed to see just yesterday the new green shoots of new life after a great many weeks where it struggled alone in the elements......I couldn't help but liken it to life in my mind,however we are not alone we are blessed to have a much more - the presence of God in our lives!
During May I had both my Mum and my Father- InLaw (Pa) visit. It was a busy time of tourist things and sewing things, jam making with our home grown 'rosellas' but best of all my lovely hubby progressed in Priesthood so now he can give us blessings as a family amongst many things!Very special! I kind of feel blessed just thinking about it...having more than just a main stream typical bloke(which he is) for a husband and a father is worth every challenge to become all that we can become. Having all living 3 generations of males gathered during all this made it all the more memorable.
One thing our recent branch conference taught me was "No man is an Island - it has a ripple effect!....Let your ripple be for good not bad" Elder Dirk Smibert June 2010
I have reflected on things that have strengthened me through trials in my life .....and without listening them all (as everyone has them)...I have come to know it is in the trials we grow 'not just in the good times! So true was this revelation to me I was reminded that often in the pitfalls of my life I had moved further and further away from God in my life...maybe i skipped Church for a week or two before it became a habit, maybe i stopped with prayers and reading my scriptures daily until that became a habit........I know that God never left me- I left God during these times. I am glad that..."there is no habit,no addiction,no rebellion,no transgression, no offense.......exempted from forgiveness"Elder Boyd Packer
Well, as a family we began to try to improve in our daily prayer times and scripture study as a family.......i share this not as an advertisement of "We are so GOOD"...quite the opposite "churches are full of sinners not saints- that's why we go!"We are just simple people trying to live a better life in these times when so much in our world is the opposite to good. We are blessed to have found many like minded people at the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
ok back to why i am telling you this - a great website which i have a link to on this page 'scriptures4kids' is holding a BOM scripture reading challenge for families...now most people have a bible..........well if you read as a family 8 pages a day I know your family will be blessed.....if you wish to read the Book of Morman which is a book written many years after the bible(new testament) ( a bit like the time gap between the old testament -like Moses times stories and the new testament - Jesus times stories) i know that if you read it the Holy Spirit will reveal to you that it is in fact a true record of God's Word and promise available to us......the Book of Morman is illustrated on 'scriptures4kids website' or if you would like a free copy you can order it through any Church of Jesus Christ of Latter -Day saint Church or buy a copy through Deseret bookstore = DeseretBook.com
One thing about this Church when we joined 12 months ago is I was blown away at how many kids and young teens came along to Church with their families....not just to be a spectator at Church but how active they are in all Church activities. It is not a Church for the faint hearted- it is based on the life and teachings of Christ so - I guess like him we too are not meant to be passive spectators but active participants . All ministy is laity , all unpaid,some say we are conservative- but we prefer to think of it as "Being In the world not Of Worldly things" i hope that makes sense.
Ok so i have rambled today, what can I say...but May came and went but I know if we plant spiritual seeds in our lives that great things will grow and bring 'fruit' in our lives and family. Looking forward to that harvest whilst labouring in the trial of planting and change..........we begin again to read our Scriptures and to grow stronger as a family and individuals. Happy Gardening to you one and all!

Perfectionist Derailed

today has taught me how to let go of things, of people, of memories,of pains...........and although i may struggle to achieve this process all in a day.......i have begun. I am trying to 'let go ' of being or striving for perfectionism........it is at the root of controlling behaviour and a key to my unhappiness, weight battle, loneliness....and much more.
you see an example of this is I would love more visitors/friends.........but i don't ask them over as my house may not be perfect enough! i self-sabotage....sometimes i try too hard- not to try to out do someone else but to try to live up to my own unrealistic expectations. These traits are 'learned' from one generation to the next- i want to re write the script.........i want friends to love me as i am even if i am in a mess.

Wouldn't have it any other way!!!

Today is a rather usual day in paradise.........we began the day however with scripture time as a family...and it was wonderful. i discovered a website with lds scriptures animated,read and pondering questions...i will try to get a link on this blog to it as a favorites button. scriptures4kids.com



Anyhow, ready to face the day after that.........kids sniffling, lessons waiting, dogs barking,crock pot loaded, washing drying, then it's raining,hubby driving (i worry about road safety),folding to be done,must find where they have taken my mop.........the floor is crying "mop me-today please",phone rings,mail to fetch and send,goal to keep unpacking the sewing room,home-storage to rotate,bin needs emptying,put couch covers back on cusions,mark boys assignments to post,and the doctor says REST hahahaha



Of course i will - I wouldn't have it any other way!